I remember now

I remember now – 

I dreamed about the stars * * *  

Note to self

Ask for help when you need it.

Challenge your backstory.

Fill the page with your words, not theirs.

It's OK. Ask for help.

Keep asking until you get it.

Black

falling deeper

getting closer

 to the furthest part

of darkness

The edge of my heart just fades to

black.

White

this rictus seethes taut

locked within a skeleton

bleached with fury

NaCl

That which is unsaid

assumes a denser form and

leaks silently out

deepest secret

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart 

                                                                       ~ E.E. Cummings 

Shame is the deepest wound

Warning: Long. And likely to provoke discomfort.