Showing posts with label solace. Show all posts
Showing posts with label solace. Show all posts

Tuesday, 21 June 2022

endured too long

  

Though bleak these woods, and damp the ground
With fallen leaves so thickly strewn,
And cold the wind that wanders round
With wild and melancholy moan;

There is a friendly roof, I know,
Might shield me from the wintry blast;
There is a fire, whose ruddy glow
Will cheer me for my wanderings past.

And so, though still, where'er I go,
Cold stranger-glances meet my eye;
Though, when my spirit sinks in woe,
Unheeded swells the unbidden sigh;

Though solitude, endured too long,
Bids youthful joys too soon decay,
Makes mirth a stranger to my tongue,
And overclouds the noon of day;

When kindly thoughts, that would have way,
Flow back discouraged to my breast; -
I know there is, though far away,
A home where heart and soul may rest. 

Warm hands are there, that, clasped in mine,
The warmer heart will not belie;
While mirth, and truth, and friendship shine
The smiling lip and earnest eye.

The ice that gathers round my heart
May there be thawed; and sweetly, then,
The joys of youth, that now depart,
Will come to cheer my soul again.

Though far I roam, that thought shall be
My hope, my comfort, everywhere;
While such a home remains to me,
My heart shall never know despair!


The consolation ~ Anne Brontë

in Poems for a world gone to sh*t 



Wednesday, 23 March 2022

sun/flower



          I still remember
          you turning towards me like I’m
          the only one there 
          


Saturday, 27 March 2021

And now

And now, I have climbed out of my bed cave. I have eaten breakfast (albeit in the afternoon), taken my medication, showered, washed my hair, tweezed my eyebrows. I have opened the window, and there are fresh sheets to sleep in when I fall into bed again. Tonight we will eat roasted chicken and vegetables and drink wine, and we will talk about the week to come, and not the week that has been. Life resumes. I will be sad for a while yet - and angry at La Narcisse - but the truth is - this sadness and anger have been with me for a long time. They are not new. This death is simply the continuation of an old repeating loss. I have survived it for all this time, I can survive it some more. 

And now, I have a family who love me, and a home that is safe, and friends that seek me out because I matter to them. That is the life I have built for myself, on a foundation of love and respect. That is my story, the story written by me, not for me. This is where my consolation lies, not out there in a place where my questions will never be fully answered, and where any of the answers will only lead to more, aching questions. In our darkest times, the people who truly care for us do not push us away, they draw us nearer to them. They hold us tight so that we know how utterly precious we are to them. And now, I find myself being held close by the people who love me. 

 

Wednesday, 8 August 2018

Wednesday, 18 January 2017

From here to there

How?

How can I do this?

How will I get from here to there?

Friday, 23 December 2016

Your words

Nothing can be lost or won
stuck in its own frailty




Everything you heard 
was wrong


And your words
your words ~
made me strong


Friday, 16 December 2016

Spindle

Kindness is ---

- a spindle of light
unspooling in darkness
- a strong golden filament
that softens the fall
- a thread of sense
in the insensible void 






Monday, 5 December 2016

Clarity





Turning in me
Burning in me

The Paper Kites

Tuesday, 13 September 2016

Generous

Attention is the rarest


and purest form of generosity.

~ Simone Weil

Saturday, 6 August 2016

Sunday, 13 March 2016

On this night, again

All is healed

all is health.


High summer holds the earth.

Hearts all whole. 



Friday, 4 March 2016

On this night

sure 

on this shining night

of star-made shadows round




kindness must watch for me 


Tuesday, 16 February 2016

Reclaim

veil the night
wakeful stars 
blow dread astray 


veil the night
wakeful stars
reunite
arms reclaim
fallen flames

Sunday, 14 February 2016

Instead

So, instead of those words, I write these - - - 


care
solicitude
regard
concern
gentleness
esteem
respect
love
consideration
goodness
support
affection
kindness
safety
trust


Sunday, 17 January 2016

Solace

I'm feeling every layer of this ~ 




I'm hardly known in this neighbourhood
But I can't help feeling like I've been misunderstood

Right to my bones, yes my sinew shook
I feel this ground is breaking, nothing is there underfoot 

Living isn't easy when you've been free and it's taken away
I will lay my head down 'til some sense has been found

Days on days, looking back, I lay
I know I'm insecure but I've been wasting away

Solace comes like I hoped it would
Love has overcome things I didn't know that it could

Living isn't easy when you've been free and it's taken away
I will lay my head down 'til some sense has been found



Solace, by Fyfe (2013)

Saturday, 5 December 2015

Clarity

I have so many layers of love for this ~





So converse me with that steady tone of where you've been
The Paper Kites