strung

 

        surely you must know

        how tight my patience has been

        strung? yet still you pull

I can't help you

Look, I can't do much to help you if you have followed me into this place, 

CONCLUSION

It has only taken me 50 years or so, but I think I might finally be on the verge of arriving at a conclusion.

poetry

 your ridiculous

fuckery gives me pause to 

vow never again

Perhaps

 

Perhaps you haven’t put enough effort into understanding how angry I am, and how angry I am at you, and why I am so angry. 

Awake

I cannot begin to tell you how difficult this is for me. How hard it is and how hard it has been for this entire wretched, aching time. I am not sleeping. I am awash with loss. This loss and a thousand losses, each a reminder of all of the others. People I’ve lost, homes and families and all manner of precious memories. I am bobbing about, disregarded in the face of this tidal swell of anguish, and there is no land in sight. 

without / within

It's a moment of light, a pause in dilute
                                                     suspended
                                                     warmth, within this captive
                                                                                      ravening
                                                                                      gloom. 

It's a glimpse of tendril, a flush of slight
                                                       fragile
                                                       movement, within this encircling
                                                                                            rictus of
                                                                                            decay.

It's the merest of nothings, a hint of unfolding
                                                          frozen 
                                                          breath, within this calcified 
                                                                                        ruinous 
                                                                                        hole.